i surprised myself too when i have no obvious wish list jump into my head as i am writing the title. Man, i am getting just a little bit too lay-back...ok think think, start with health:
1. daily 5min simple workout, 2 -3 times a week morning jog --- time to get serious on maintaining good shape as stomach is getting far easier to go round. Ok, maybe i should include a chin-up exercise stand as a wish list of year 2011.
2. pick up a random skill - i think i am taking up kayaking in first week of jan, so as per previous few years, a easily achievable resolution :)
3. take a spontaneous trip - i believe i will travel at least 4 times this year, so high 5 to being broke :)
4. complete CFA level 1 if i fail, and continue reviewing if i pass - decided to postpone level 2, as i am far from learning the gist of level 1, so i must complete it and benefit out of it by year 2011.
5. career advancement into a role emphasize more on advisory - know quite it most likely a actually movement will happen only in year 2012, but heck, this is my wishlist :)
6. increase income by 20% - ok, this is gonna be tough for sure....especially when item no. 3 very likely jeopardize my chance of earning money through investment.
7. have my emergency fund (not to be invested) park at bank safely - again, tough 1....rule of thumb, 6 months of basic salary ( ok la, 3 months also pass already)
8. hahaha.....again, complete my travel log!
9. Decided not to fix any amount of time in my reading hour, as it should a joyful thing to do so. Instead, i shall fixed myself as to complete reading 2 type of books that is totally different from what i would usually read.
10. charity! must-start-donating-in-schedule
11. remember the current self, not over-driven by certain objectivity in life and forget about the beauty of the journey reaching there.
12. embrace active-listening, and learn to interrupt at the right moment. And do not speak when you do not hear the whole conversation. And be humble....
hm....looks like yet another long list, and i was just saying i have nothing i mind, ha....but i do see the changes in the items that i am seeking for improvement. So we shall see a year later then!
feeling home
i am sure that i wasnt the only person had this feeling before. Whenever you spent a night at somewhere else, no matter how comfortable the bed is ,or how wonderful the host has treated you, there's always a tingling sensation that making yourself hard to put your guard down wholeheartedly. When you are finally home after being away for a while, you just cant help but feel RELIEVE! as you are putting down your luggage in your room. The bed just seems so irresistible to you and you will joyfully jump on your bed and give your slightly cold duvet and love hug...
I have vague definition on home ever since the year i left my country for tertiary education. Home is where the opportunities lie, that has been stayed truth on my heart for all these years, and myself has never let geography boundary stop me from seeking opportunity (though it has not been that fruitful). However, it was this year, that i had a rather refreshing feel about my home.
for some reason, the frequency of me being home alone for days increase tremendously compare to previous years. And i have always love to be alone, be it home or travel. Its not that i am antisocial or hate my family. On the contrary, i enjoys human contact and i have great family bonding will all my family members. However, it has always my nature that if given a choice, after a long day, i wish to be alone, sitting on the sofa, listening to soft music, sipping a cup of hot drinks while reading through non-academic books/magazine. When i am happy, i'll do the same. When i'm sad, i'll do the same. When i am traveling alone, i'll do the same thing as well.
Thanks to the extra personal moments that was granted to me, i am beginning to regaining those lay-back, chill mentality that i've lost it since i left Aotearoa ie NZ. It was until this year that i have back these comfort feeling when i'm home alone. It's irony, i know, for acknowledging the comfort feeling in a foreign land that i have stayed only 3 years, instead of the place that i have stayed for close to decade before and after i leave the country. I guess, experience that you gained along the years do change a person so radical that one could not recall how it was like before.
I do not know how can i put it in words, but i felt like my emotion is behaving like a vaccinated memory-cell, every single small exposure to the past excites the memory-cell, manifesting a series of chain reaction, leaving a fever-like feeling in my heart.
I am still breathing the air, but it tasted less humid. I am still under the same fan, but the wind is more gentle. Coffee taste the same, but it doesn't really matter much.
I'm just feeling... content. Just like the good old day.
I have vague definition on home ever since the year i left my country for tertiary education. Home is where the opportunities lie, that has been stayed truth on my heart for all these years, and myself has never let geography boundary stop me from seeking opportunity (though it has not been that fruitful). However, it was this year, that i had a rather refreshing feel about my home.
for some reason, the frequency of me being home alone for days increase tremendously compare to previous years. And i have always love to be alone, be it home or travel. Its not that i am antisocial or hate my family. On the contrary, i enjoys human contact and i have great family bonding will all my family members. However, it has always my nature that if given a choice, after a long day, i wish to be alone, sitting on the sofa, listening to soft music, sipping a cup of hot drinks while reading through non-academic books/magazine. When i am happy, i'll do the same. When i'm sad, i'll do the same. When i am traveling alone, i'll do the same thing as well.
Thanks to the extra personal moments that was granted to me, i am beginning to regaining those lay-back, chill mentality that i've lost it since i left Aotearoa ie NZ. It was until this year that i have back these comfort feeling when i'm home alone. It's irony, i know, for acknowledging the comfort feeling in a foreign land that i have stayed only 3 years, instead of the place that i have stayed for close to decade before and after i leave the country. I guess, experience that you gained along the years do change a person so radical that one could not recall how it was like before.
I do not know how can i put it in words, but i felt like my emotion is behaving like a vaccinated memory-cell, every single small exposure to the past excites the memory-cell, manifesting a series of chain reaction, leaving a fever-like feeling in my heart.
I am still breathing the air, but it tasted less humid. I am still under the same fan, but the wind is more gentle. Coffee taste the same, but it doesn't really matter much.
I'm just feeling... content. Just like the good old day.
reflection of twenty ten
once again, its time to look at my checklist and see if i have actually followed whatever resolution i have made. seriously, i cant recall a single resolution, not until i cut and paste the list for the 1 year old post. ok...time for reality check.
1. read at least 30min of books before going to bed - fail. Well, i did spend more time on books, but compared to college time, it is still really little. But i started reading books that i never thought i would be interested though.
2. exercise the 10min workout set i did exercise, but is less than 10min...erm....pass lar~
3. 1 day of random new skill (at the moment is hip hop), 1 day of badminton or squash, 3 days of gym per week - well, i set this rules because i was expecting myself to be a freelancer for the whole year..but since there is a change of plan along the way. This resolution no longer applicable.
4. raise my yearly income to above RM60,000 once again -wow, i actually wrote a figure here??! erm....okey, this is awkward.....erm....ok la, satisfactory....haha...
5. go for a spontaneous trip with friend -well, i did it on the first day of year 2010, so a big yes...and i guess will be doing more in year 2011
6.schedule work and play time in the right ratio- erm...i spent more of the free time in study. so dont think i pass this resolution. but i did have fun though...erm....ok la, fail this 1...
7. complete my CFP, and keep the option of challenging CIFP - a big yes to CFP and CIFP no longer applicable to my choice, and heck, i even take up CFA, so a big pass!
8. make profit from the trading progam -biggest failure of all, sigh....
9. purchase a ~RM120,000 car in december -ok, this is such a bad choice of resolution. why would i think of getting a new car? not the time yet.....
10. donate money for charity -ok, this is really shameful....my friend didnt ask monye from me, and i forgot to pay for it.....fail! or maybe i should pay a lump sum to him before this year end....hm....not a bad i dea
11. spend time writing down journal /story at least 4 times a week -hahaha....this is like a resolution that i fail on a yearly basis.
12. forget the past, and move on in terms of relationship, take things slowly -erm....i did try to hit on a girl, but soon i realize its either i wasnt ready, or she's not exactly the right person. No seeing the light of attaching to anyone still....
13. the most important of all, find the reasons to achieve all this. with nothing to inspire on, all this will just plain talk - well i do believe i know myself better than ever, so this is a yes :)
1. read at least 30min of books before going to bed - fail. Well, i did spend more time on books, but compared to college time, it is still really little. But i started reading books that i never thought i would be interested though.
2. exercise the 10min workout set i did exercise, but is less than 10min...erm....pass lar~
3. 1 day of random new skill (at the moment is hip hop), 1 day of badminton or squash, 3 days of gym per week - well, i set this rules because i was expecting myself to be a freelancer for the whole year..but since there is a change of plan along the way. This resolution no longer applicable.
4. raise my yearly income to above RM60,000 once again -wow, i actually wrote a figure here??! erm....okey, this is awkward.....erm....ok la, satisfactory....haha...
5. go for a spontaneous trip with friend -well, i did it on the first day of year 2010, so a big yes...and i guess will be doing more in year 2011
6.schedule work and play time in the right ratio- erm...i spent more of the free time in study. so dont think i pass this resolution. but i did have fun though...erm....ok la, fail this 1...
7. complete my CFP, and keep the option of challenging CIFP - a big yes to CFP and CIFP no longer applicable to my choice, and heck, i even take up CFA, so a big pass!
8. make profit from the trading progam -biggest failure of all, sigh....
9. purchase a ~RM120,000 car in december -ok, this is such a bad choice of resolution. why would i think of getting a new car? not the time yet.....
10. donate money for charity -ok, this is really shameful....my friend didnt ask monye from me, and i forgot to pay for it.....fail! or maybe i should pay a lump sum to him before this year end....hm....not a bad i dea
11. spend time writing down journal /story at least 4 times a week -hahaha....this is like a resolution that i fail on a yearly basis.
12. forget the past, and move on in terms of relationship, take things slowly -erm....i did try to hit on a girl, but soon i realize its either i wasnt ready, or she's not exactly the right person. No seeing the light of attaching to anyone still....
13. the most important of all, find the reasons to achieve all this. with nothing to inspire on, all this will just plain talk - well i do believe i know myself better than ever, so this is a yes :)
ok, final score, 5/12 achieve = 41%
i am quite content with the score actually, given the fact that i have actually changed my mind rather radically in the middle of year 2010.
if a sentence is needed to summarize the year, i guess "slow, in order to be fast" is what i have learn in year 2010. Many things cannot be rushed, and for the past few years i have been too obsessed with young success story, making myself felt so frustrated for not achieving anything before age 25 like many famous guys do. As the year pass, i am beginning to see things in longer horizon, i am still learning, but is more capable of holding myself from making hasty decision. I am more able to accept that i could be just an average joe, and that thought no longer put me down or stop me from try to be different.....
year 2010, is the year that make me start walking, instead of lying on the bed dreaming of flying.
I'm still dreaming, but i know the more likely way is to start walking to the distant airport.
phase
If you have ever joint a multilevel marketing conference/meeting, i am sure you have heard of the story of how a frog being cooked in a slowly heat up pot compared to another escaped frog that is being transferred from a colder pot to a hot pot. I had heard of it a couple of times, and well understood the moral behind the story, but it still cant prevent myself from suffering the changes in life. It diffuse slowly, almost unnoticeable, and bang! its a brand new ball game...
Not so long ago, i am beginning to feel out of place for various reason. Club scene beginning to looks like teenage prom to me, popular drama's plot insult my intelligence level badly, Movies and Music Video are all featuring unfamiliar faces and liking them is almost like being paedophilic, choices of clothes are down to pathetic G2000, padini or U2 (er...this is not such a good example, bcoz money played a bigger role in this case), and what really hits me real hard is, radio station are not longer catering for my age group.
Aging is an awesome process, i still think it is. Getting older doesnt make you detached from the society. What actually happen is, the marketing scheme is longer treating you as the target audience. God knows how much we have influenced by advertisement, and when i was a student, everything on display, everywhere the marketing program is, it all seems relevant to me, making me super envy +jealous +green monster+hate not being end with the last name Gates.
Now things has changed. Lots of hot selling items are not exactly attractive to me, and i AM comfortable for being slightly different. there's a saying that advertisement company will ignore consumer that stop buying music, and you bet i am well being in that category.
From time to time, i still wish to have the similar attention given by the world (advertising company, to be exact, but heck, they do make me feel like top of the world..), but i guess, by accepting we are no longer the target group, it may helps us to move on better. Perhaps, this may help me complaint lesser towards the media and the mall, and making a far less cynical growing man...
Not so long ago, i am beginning to feel out of place for various reason. Club scene beginning to looks like teenage prom to me, popular drama's plot insult my intelligence level badly, Movies and Music Video are all featuring unfamiliar faces and liking them is almost like being paedophilic, choices of clothes are down to pathetic G2000, padini or U2 (er...this is not such a good example, bcoz money played a bigger role in this case), and what really hits me real hard is, radio station are not longer catering for my age group.
Aging is an awesome process, i still think it is. Getting older doesnt make you detached from the society. What actually happen is, the marketing scheme is longer treating you as the target audience. God knows how much we have influenced by advertisement, and when i was a student, everything on display, everywhere the marketing program is, it all seems relevant to me, making me super envy +jealous +green monster+hate not being end with the last name Gates.
Now things has changed. Lots of hot selling items are not exactly attractive to me, and i AM comfortable for being slightly different. there's a saying that advertisement company will ignore consumer that stop buying music, and you bet i am well being in that category.
From time to time, i still wish to have the similar attention given by the world (advertising company, to be exact, but heck, they do make me feel like top of the world..), but i guess, by accepting we are no longer the target group, it may helps us to move on better. Perhaps, this may help me complaint lesser towards the media and the mall, and making a far less cynical growing man...
more than just a number
was listening to radio, and the Deejay was asking listener to sum up the year with a single word....few words came into my mind, "new", "messy", "corrupt", just to name a few. However, i just cant find any word that can summarized the year.
Had a hectic workday, by the time i complete my day task, its almost eight. Reached home with an empty skull, and body subconsciously walked towards kitchen to scout for food.
Home alone, just the way i like it.
*play* Corinne Bailey Rae - Like a Star
Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel off the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands
Oh, I do love you
Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
We do it all the time
Blowing out my mind
You've got this look I can't describe
You make me feel like I'm alive
When everything else is a fade
Without a doubt you're on my side
Heaven has been away too long
Can't find the words to write this song
Oh, your love
Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"phase" - a word comes into my year. That's the word of the year for me.
Yes, i have stepped into another phase of life.
Had a hectic workday, by the time i complete my day task, its almost eight. Reached home with an empty skull, and body subconsciously walked towards kitchen to scout for food.
Home alone, just the way i like it.
*play* Corinne Bailey Rae - Like a Star
Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel off the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands
Oh, I do love you
Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
We do it all the time
Blowing out my mind
You've got this look I can't describe
You make me feel like I'm alive
When everything else is a fade
Without a doubt you're on my side
Heaven has been away too long
Can't find the words to write this song
Oh, your love
Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"phase" - a word comes into my year. That's the word of the year for me.
Yes, i have stepped into another phase of life.
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