children world

" uncle why is the sun looks like this?"
" the sun is going down, its call sunset"
"will the sun come up again?"
"yes, tomorrow morning it will, its call sunrise"
" then where do the sun pump petrol?"
" the sun dont have to pump petrol"
"no! sun need to pump petrol! daddy's car also need to pump petrol!"


does it really help?

We all try hard to avoid it, but most of us are pretty much married to our work, and our company is like the partner that you can never satisfied. Of course, there are good times between us, unfortunately our brain by default have stronger memory cells when it comes to angry/sadness moment as per compared to the happy time. Most people will just remember the bad things ( thus explaining why most women can never forgive husband that goes cheating, not even one time...well, most of the women), and if there's hardly good things to remember, then we will just remember nothing but the bitter moment.

so if you have done so badly for the past whole year, and you yourself know it so well, then where are you bothered trying to be nice to us at the 11th hour before the judgement day? its almost like telling us that you are well aware of your bad behaviour for the past 1 year, and now you are trying to save your ass by doing something that you never do, and probably will not do once the day are over. really, you must have been reading too much newspaper, and learning these old tricks from the old politician....

seriously, all of us well aware of the sequences if bad rating was given, so what makes you think we will be so honest and rate you badly? just save up the money and pay us closer to the market rate.....

reporting

" I dont understand why one must report his or her doing to their partner?"
" Its not something that you do, it is something that you automatically responded to..."
" You may be right, i dont really understand it because i have been single for ages"

i remembered having this conversation with you not so long ago.

I fully understand your statement now.

like a star


Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Honour to love you

Still I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

You've got this look I can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is au fait,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Oh...
Your love,

Still I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

Now I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,

I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
For anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands

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I hasnt stop talking to myself whenever i am alone at night. Its just that i am choosing not to record these conversations. Wasn't really that educational i reckon. Lots of self-questioning issues are still in deadlocked. I have come to a conclusion that I have yet to achieve the level of wisdom to answer all these questions, so...just keep experiencing life until I finally understand it.

Been reading quite a number of important historical events/moments through wikipedia. Interestingly, all these major events are started off as a convergence of minor events before turning into the perfect storm. More often, individual could have change the whole history by simply declining the order/offer. It kinda got me thinking what kind of small decisions that i have made in life resulting the current me.

Everyday we need to make a decision over something, from things as simple as what to eat to something big like what should i do in life. Perhaps, what kind of decision we need to make is not enough to justify the magnitude of that decision in our life. Timing, to be more specific, what kind of decision we made during the crucial moment causing far greater impact than deciding on big decision during a non crucial time.

Being prepared, is the wisdom that money cant buy. Question is, have i been exploring life enough to gain the experience, and the wisdom, in order to be prepared for the crucial moment?

post holiday....

Was confidently thinking that i have achieved at least half of my 2011 resolution, and then reality crashes me real hard with failure in examination and stutter over my job....

i guess the universe did hear my cry on wanting to be more humble....i am forced to be humble now....