untitled

I hasnt stop talking to myself whenever i am alone at night. Its just that i am choosing not to record these conversations. Wasn't really that educational i reckon. Lots of self-questioning issues are still in deadlocked. I have come to a conclusion that I have yet to achieve the level of wisdom to answer all these questions, so...just keep experiencing life until I finally understand it.

Been reading quite a number of important historical events/moments through wikipedia. Interestingly, all these major events are started off as a convergence of minor events before turning into the perfect storm. More often, individual could have change the whole history by simply declining the order/offer. It kinda got me thinking what kind of small decisions that i have made in life resulting the current me.

Everyday we need to make a decision over something, from things as simple as what to eat to something big like what should i do in life. Perhaps, what kind of decision we need to make is not enough to justify the magnitude of that decision in our life. Timing, to be more specific, what kind of decision we made during the crucial moment causing far greater impact than deciding on big decision during a non crucial time.

Being prepared, is the wisdom that money cant buy. Question is, have i been exploring life enough to gain the experience, and the wisdom, in order to be prepared for the crucial moment?