kasihan..

at the age of 23, for the first time in my life where i have to choose a path with no guidance or information to be research on, i am lost...

many people have successfully achieved something, or at least, they would have known what's laying down ahead of them. Instead of entering the workforce full of enthusiastic (at least for the first few days), i am sitting in front of my laptop, wondering if there's actually a place for me to place my baby step of my hopeful career.

at first it appears to be full of option that i was spoiled with joy n refuse to put any thoughts into it. Ironically, there's nothing left for me to choose now and i am so so lost that every morning i have to ask myself if i should listen to my gut, or my heart, or my brain, or even my foot to decide on what to do next

i missed being a student. i missed being occupied with assignment because you have to work your ass on something that is insignificant to anyone in this world besides yourself.what so great about tat? you dont have to be responsible to anything but yourself. i always thinking myself as an individual, n yet when it comes to decision making, it amazed me how it might actually affect people around me. there's is no way for me to please everyone around, and the worst thing is to choose between your family and yourself.

should you love yourself more because your body is given by the parent you love, or should you love your parent more because they gave you the soul?