i am quite aware of my lifestyles changes since i start working. I am losing interest in watching EPL, stop going cinema, only shop when have something to buy, not watching TV, and only play computer games once in a blue moon (but will go hardcore for 2 days, and delete it day after).
At point i was proud of my changes and snubbed those friends who are still hooked up into it as immature. But now, i actually believe that if after a day of hard works, if you do not have any bad habits to indulge in, you are even more pathetic.
Craving or indulgence on anything is a sign of having something that you care for. As much as most of the time things that you care is absolutely rubbish (like OMG, Brat Pitt is married...but really, does it matter?), it is still a sign that you are pretty much intact with the world. Compared to people who really have nothing to keep their interest on besides work, many weird behaviors may beginning to infest the numbed heart.
so, here, i declared that i am open to some bad habits that can make me go crazy, go sleepless and earn nothing out of it at the end of the day~ (man, i love how i create such a great story just to make myself feel justifiable to watch Taiwan entertainment program :) )
p/s: i carefully write this up to avoid the usage of the word 'passion' as i've been abusing it, but the whole story is actually all about it...
kipitiam (3)
"now tell me~"
i can feel the anger. "okey, i am listening"
"what's with guy and beauty pageant?"
"what about it?"
"why is every man dream of getting ex-/beauty pageant to be gf?"
"i dont"
" no, i am sure you do, if i include the list to model, celebrity.."
i was getting cheeky, so i answered,
" because we are strong believer of Darwin Theory, that genetic selection is a must for survival"
"that was actually quite a good answer," another girl agreeing my cock story.
"come on, give me an answer, how do you feel if your friend have a model gf?"
"if it is model, i feel nothing, but it is a model/celebrity that i like, i will kill him"
"seriously?"
" not really....but definitely feel a bit jealous"
"why?"
"no answer for it"
"see....man use lower part to think most of the time"
"i preferred to be called as a visual animal"
how shallow you may argued, but seriously, it takes time to know a person's inner beauty, so appearance is what you can judge at initial stage. and there's one thing i believe the ladies should know - most men actually know quite well the difference between getting a wife and getting a girlfriend (or mistress).
And since when the world is fair?
i can feel the anger. "okey, i am listening"
"what's with guy and beauty pageant?"
"what about it?"
"why is every man dream of getting ex-/beauty pageant to be gf?"
"i dont"
" no, i am sure you do, if i include the list to model, celebrity.."
i was getting cheeky, so i answered,
" because we are strong believer of Darwin Theory, that genetic selection is a must for survival"
"that was actually quite a good answer," another girl agreeing my cock story.
"come on, give me an answer, how do you feel if your friend have a model gf?"
"if it is model, i feel nothing, but it is a model/celebrity that i like, i will kill him"
"seriously?"
" not really....but definitely feel a bit jealous"
"why?"
"no answer for it"
"see....man use lower part to think most of the time"
"i preferred to be called as a visual animal"
how shallow you may argued, but seriously, it takes time to know a person's inner beauty, so appearance is what you can judge at initial stage. and there's one thing i believe the ladies should know - most men actually know quite well the difference between getting a wife and getting a girlfriend (or mistress).
And since when the world is fair?
kipitiam (2)
had so many interesting conversation that many of them are still lingering in my thought....
" so what kind of criteria you are looking into?" one of the girl asked.
"at the moment, i look quite highly upon the ability to be independent"
"are you sure?"
"what's wrong?'
"all independent girls have dark corner that you will never know..."
"i can have my dark corner then..."
"you will still lose out....i have 2 stories on 2 independent girls for you"
"okey....."
"girl A, was told by the bf that he wants a independent gf, and so she start to socials around and have all kind of friends. eventually she became so independent that she started to feel annoyed about the bf that she starts to feel that he is a little bit too sticky. So currently most of the night the guy need to call her up, worrying about her where about while she is happily flirting with other guys"
"er..... maybe the guy dunno how to play the game, i am confident that it will not ended up like this," i argued
"fine, then talk about girl B, who love by the bf very very much. He praised her literally to everyone he knows, saying she is the most independent girl in the world, giving him all kind of freedom, and let him concentrate on his job and his friend during the weekday. He is so glad that she wants him to concentrate more on work before talking about marriage, as much as he really wan to get marry asap. BUT! what he dunno is, as he was happily having the gf over the weekend, she is sleeping with 5 other man over the weekday. and that is the REAL reason why she dont want to get married. "
".........."
" still think independent girl is the best?"
"i think........erm......that is a risk i am willing to take"
"good luck then...."
" so what kind of criteria you are looking into?" one of the girl asked.
"at the moment, i look quite highly upon the ability to be independent"
"are you sure?"
"what's wrong?'
"all independent girls have dark corner that you will never know..."
"i can have my dark corner then..."
"you will still lose out....i have 2 stories on 2 independent girls for you"
"okey....."
"girl A, was told by the bf that he wants a independent gf, and so she start to socials around and have all kind of friends. eventually she became so independent that she started to feel annoyed about the bf that she starts to feel that he is a little bit too sticky. So currently most of the night the guy need to call her up, worrying about her where about while she is happily flirting with other guys"
"er..... maybe the guy dunno how to play the game, i am confident that it will not ended up like this," i argued
"fine, then talk about girl B, who love by the bf very very much. He praised her literally to everyone he knows, saying she is the most independent girl in the world, giving him all kind of freedom, and let him concentrate on his job and his friend during the weekday. He is so glad that she wants him to concentrate more on work before talking about marriage, as much as he really wan to get marry asap. BUT! what he dunno is, as he was happily having the gf over the weekend, she is sleeping with 5 other man over the weekday. and that is the REAL reason why she dont want to get married. "
".........."
" still think independent girl is the best?"
"i think........erm......that is a risk i am willing to take"
"good luck then...."
kopitiam
Had so much coffee for the past few weeks that i am considering myself a coffee addict now. Its funny how i always declare myself as a tea person, and yet i have not been drinking tea for quite a long time. As Klangite i always bring my own tea to restaurant, be it Bah Kut Teh or dim sum ( apparently its not that common outside Klang, which really surprised me) but lately mum been bringing along some unknown tea, and i drank it without thinking much abo0ut the taste. So, i find it hard to describe it as enjoying the tea moment.
so yesterday i meet up with high school friend in yet another kopitiam, but i can no longer order anymore coffee. then we start talking about the use-to-be-famous mamak place has become so empty since most people choosing kopitiam over mamak now, which i am calling it an inflation in disguise.
then inevitably we entered conversation regarding relationship. I complained, and question on why must we talk about man vs women whenever there's both male and female in a gathering.
" that is because when there's only guys, you guys talk nothing but bullshit, i am just helping you to keep your crap in case you run of crap to talk"
" we just preferred not to talk about it"
"but if i am your partner, i am much preferred that you talk to me~"
see, my friend is juuuuuuuusst so good in leading me into topic that she wants to talk about...
"its a choice by nature for me not to throw my problem to my partner, which most likely she cant do anything about it"
" and it is okey to talk about it to friend?"
"usually dont talk to guys about it"
" and it is okey to talk about it to FEMALE friend instead of your partner?"
"err...........er..............."
she got me there..... i have all kind of answers for that in mind, but it all just seems like an excuse in that moment. i believe that friendship can be forged between male and female, but i also know that it is almost impossible to make a gf feel absolutely okey for their bf to have close female friend, even more so if the girl is the person he turns to when problem arises.
N yet i believe this is something that i would do if i have a partner now.
so yesterday i meet up with high school friend in yet another kopitiam, but i can no longer order anymore coffee. then we start talking about the use-to-be-famous mamak place has become so empty since most people choosing kopitiam over mamak now, which i am calling it an inflation in disguise.
then inevitably we entered conversation regarding relationship. I complained, and question on why must we talk about man vs women whenever there's both male and female in a gathering.
" that is because when there's only guys, you guys talk nothing but bullshit, i am just helping you to keep your crap in case you run of crap to talk"
" we just preferred not to talk about it"
"but if i am your partner, i am much preferred that you talk to me~"
see, my friend is juuuuuuuusst so good in leading me into topic that she wants to talk about...
"its a choice by nature for me not to throw my problem to my partner, which most likely she cant do anything about it"
" and it is okey to talk about it to friend?"
"usually dont talk to guys about it"
" and it is okey to talk about it to FEMALE friend instead of your partner?"
"err...........er..............."
she got me there..... i have all kind of answers for that in mind, but it all just seems like an excuse in that moment. i believe that friendship can be forged between male and female, but i also know that it is almost impossible to make a gf feel absolutely okey for their bf to have close female friend, even more so if the girl is the person he turns to when problem arises.
N yet i believe this is something that i would do if i have a partner now.
passion
facebook has become so prominent that most people cant remember what they did online before its existence. i have not tried any games in facebook besides twister, but still that doesnt stop me from logging in.
so most of the time i will just be a silent user and observed only what people is feeling right now. Maybe is due to the similar age, quite often i am seeing things or frustration that me myself felt it. so the latest trend i am seeing is about passion.
most of my friends are working for 2 - 3 years by now, and is on the verge of looking for actual direction in their life (well, some found it, while some dont even bother about it), so 'passion' has been the word repeatedly appeared on the screen.
the systematic lifestyles that we experienced as we start working is so rigid that most people just stop using the right brain, and eventually losing the passion they have. i am not saying all of us, but definitely a good number of us are losing it.
perhaps, if we learn to be living a more spontaneous life, less facebook n TVB drama, we could be better off.
"wei, we left nothing to do leh if we dont watch tv and online..."
"mamak doesnt seems to be that much spontaneous also...."
if money is not an issue, picking up a new skill is definitely a way to go..it doesnt have to be useful, just something new that you can talk cock to others and said hey, i've done that.
but, since when money is not an issue? trueee......so until the money is not an issue, let's get rot together and be a passionless, cynical average man lar~
so most of the time i will just be a silent user and observed only what people is feeling right now. Maybe is due to the similar age, quite often i am seeing things or frustration that me myself felt it. so the latest trend i am seeing is about passion.
most of my friends are working for 2 - 3 years by now, and is on the verge of looking for actual direction in their life (well, some found it, while some dont even bother about it), so 'passion' has been the word repeatedly appeared on the screen.
the systematic lifestyles that we experienced as we start working is so rigid that most people just stop using the right brain, and eventually losing the passion they have. i am not saying all of us, but definitely a good number of us are losing it.
perhaps, if we learn to be living a more spontaneous life, less facebook n TVB drama, we could be better off.
"wei, we left nothing to do leh if we dont watch tv and online..."
"mamak doesnt seems to be that much spontaneous also...."
if money is not an issue, picking up a new skill is definitely a way to go..it doesnt have to be useful, just something new that you can talk cock to others and said hey, i've done that.
but, since when money is not an issue? trueee......so until the money is not an issue, let's get rot together and be a passionless, cynical average man lar~
Starbucks
Received a call from ex-colleague, asked me out for lunch. Why not, i told myself. Ended up having lunch at Starbucks. Third times to starbucks in two days. I was in 3 different city, meeting 3 different people, but had the same kind of coffee and foods. If Starbucks is all about selling a lifestyle, then i guess i've sold my lifestyle to the Texan
personally i was never a fan of starbucks, but in terms of their business model, i am full of admiration. The price is high, the coffee is seriously nothing to shout about, the decoration is just typical. You can find thousand of reasons that it may or it shoul fail, but not only it survived, but it is forming part of our life. Starbucks may be a sunset business in European countries, but it has no sign of wilting in the Asia counterpart.
now it has appeared to me that things that are popular in USA will make way to Japan, taiwan, HK or Singapore, then it will make way to Malaysia or maybe thailand/ indonesia. Eventually it will reach China as the popularity declined in European countries. Thanks to the technology, many trends no longer going through the cycle, but the theory still valid in many terms. Many traders or businessman have successfully ride on the bandwagon and make a big bucks out of it, Berjaya Group definitely is one of them.
My question is, why are we so willingly to be culturally conquered by the western counterparts? Theis grass just seems greener in every way. With small alternation, their popular items will definitely stormed into our life and accepted it as a cultural norm. I try to struggle and failed, but i am still holding my last breath. No idea what was i upholding with, but i just cant stop myself but feeling pity for the 90's babies. no doubt they apdoted well, living a better life, breaking through a lot of so call tradition that restricted social advancement, but i just felt the human touch and soul is missing somewhere. Individualism is rising to the mainstream, and social pride just seems a little bit far off...
my pessimsim may be due to the group of 90's babies i am observing are from higher income group, which have absolute no idea the actual value of RM10,000. but it is good enough to keep me shivering.
personally i was never a fan of starbucks, but in terms of their business model, i am full of admiration. The price is high, the coffee is seriously nothing to shout about, the decoration is just typical. You can find thousand of reasons that it may or it shoul fail, but not only it survived, but it is forming part of our life. Starbucks may be a sunset business in European countries, but it has no sign of wilting in the Asia counterpart.
now it has appeared to me that things that are popular in USA will make way to Japan, taiwan, HK or Singapore, then it will make way to Malaysia or maybe thailand/ indonesia. Eventually it will reach China as the popularity declined in European countries. Thanks to the technology, many trends no longer going through the cycle, but the theory still valid in many terms. Many traders or businessman have successfully ride on the bandwagon and make a big bucks out of it, Berjaya Group definitely is one of them.
My question is, why are we so willingly to be culturally conquered by the western counterparts? Theis grass just seems greener in every way. With small alternation, their popular items will definitely stormed into our life and accepted it as a cultural norm. I try to struggle and failed, but i am still holding my last breath. No idea what was i upholding with, but i just cant stop myself but feeling pity for the 90's babies. no doubt they apdoted well, living a better life, breaking through a lot of so call tradition that restricted social advancement, but i just felt the human touch and soul is missing somewhere. Individualism is rising to the mainstream, and social pride just seems a little bit far off...
my pessimsim may be due to the group of 90's babies i am observing are from higher income group, which have absolute no idea the actual value of RM10,000. but it is good enough to keep me shivering.
age gap
yesterday had a reunion dinner with a few schoolmate of mine. Inevitably our conversation involved 'facebook' very much. " remember to tag me!" " ur singapore trip seems so fun!" i do find it kinda freaky that we were still unable to offline even when we are meeting up physically. We have not met each other for more than 8 years, and know nothing about our education background or current job status, but everyone seems to know that who has been to bali, and who is currently happily attached. So now the world has change so much you will know all the private matters of a person, but besides that, you know nothing about him or her. hey, this is so different from the defination of aquantance from merely 5 years back!
as much as i personally hooked up to facebook as well, i am actually hating the effect that it broughts along. This schoolmate of mine asked me why would a guy change their status to 'in relationship with' in facebook n thus causing their market price to drop. I cheekily answered that mostly likely the gf used the account and change the status (which i strongly believe so), and i made some comment about how silly of people declaring that you turned single or having a relationship with who to all the people be it friends or acquantance.
then my friend made a really good statement that caught me thinking until now :" well, they definitely can and will do so because facebook is the platform of showing off your narcissistic, telling the world that look, i am soooo cool looking."
seriously, the statement actually change my perspective towards facebook as i tried to digest the statement. i am beginning to think that the reason i despice those showboat in facebook because i am putting my slightly conservative perspective on them without realizing the creation and the reason of facebook being so popular. Narcissism, i have overlook your existance.
many things i've failed to comprehend yet, and i am actually seeing age gap among group that are merely few years younger than me. The true reason is because internet only slowly infused to my life as i entering college where those younger than me 2 yeras or more actually have internet as part of their life. in internet world, i am older b 20 years. this maybe a general statement, but this is how i generally felt towards those city boy/girl that are younger than me.
good example is that i havae concern over privacy and the importance of keeping things to myself in certain things/occasion, but this seems to be a weird idea to others. I thought having a blog is already the biggest breakthrough in terms of privacy, but twitter just proved that young people thirst to be heard and to be known, and nothings else seems to be an issue.
call me old fashion, but i will not bow down to twitter as it definitely crossed my final line. And what's more important, i have lost the fun of writing and receiving letter from pen-pal, i do not wish to lose my blog.
p/s: have the sudden thought that most books lover are the one hold thight to the great feeling of written letters, does it make us more conversative?
as much as i personally hooked up to facebook as well, i am actually hating the effect that it broughts along. This schoolmate of mine asked me why would a guy change their status to 'in relationship with' in facebook n thus causing their market price to drop. I cheekily answered that mostly likely the gf used the account and change the status (which i strongly believe so), and i made some comment about how silly of people declaring that you turned single or having a relationship with who to all the people be it friends or acquantance.
then my friend made a really good statement that caught me thinking until now :" well, they definitely can and will do so because facebook is the platform of showing off your narcissistic, telling the world that look, i am soooo cool looking."
seriously, the statement actually change my perspective towards facebook as i tried to digest the statement. i am beginning to think that the reason i despice those showboat in facebook because i am putting my slightly conservative perspective on them without realizing the creation and the reason of facebook being so popular. Narcissism, i have overlook your existance.
many things i've failed to comprehend yet, and i am actually seeing age gap among group that are merely few years younger than me. The true reason is because internet only slowly infused to my life as i entering college where those younger than me 2 yeras or more actually have internet as part of their life. in internet world, i am older b 20 years. this maybe a general statement, but this is how i generally felt towards those city boy/girl that are younger than me.
good example is that i havae concern over privacy and the importance of keeping things to myself in certain things/occasion, but this seems to be a weird idea to others. I thought having a blog is already the biggest breakthrough in terms of privacy, but twitter just proved that young people thirst to be heard and to be known, and nothings else seems to be an issue.
call me old fashion, but i will not bow down to twitter as it definitely crossed my final line. And what's more important, i have lost the fun of writing and receiving letter from pen-pal, i do not wish to lose my blog.
p/s: have the sudden thought that most books lover are the one hold thight to the great feeling of written letters, does it make us more conversative?
performing art
when to KLPAC and attended a performance art competition call Short and Sweet Malaysia 2009. Attended the event because i have never been to KLPAC, curious about performing art in malaysia, and a friend of mind is one of the performers.
lots of thought came into my mind while i was watching the dances, and sometimes i was so into my thinking that i forgotten about what were they performing. That's probably is one of the beauty of such dances. I have a thought on pretty much everything, from the difficulties in juggling between metaphoric vs audience acceptance, to the quality of audience, rude neighbor that keep guessing the origin of dance (and got it all wrong), the horrible invention call cellphone, the studio....
lots of thing to digest for a day especially it was a class on taxation before i head on to the performance. i shall rest my brain for the moment....
lots of thought came into my mind while i was watching the dances, and sometimes i was so into my thinking that i forgotten about what were they performing. That's probably is one of the beauty of such dances. I have a thought on pretty much everything, from the difficulties in juggling between metaphoric vs audience acceptance, to the quality of audience, rude neighbor that keep guessing the origin of dance (and got it all wrong), the horrible invention call cellphone, the studio....
lots of thing to digest for a day especially it was a class on taxation before i head on to the performance. i shall rest my brain for the moment....
the arrival
this month i have like millions of hours for self reflection, but most of the time i ended up sleeping, which is normal knowing the fact i choose to do it lying down on my bed and the super comfortable memory pillow (i am actually missing it already by just mentioning the name).
i am still far from being sure of what i am looking forward to. Things dont just come naturally apparently. Making a decision is just a beginning of tonnes of question. I have answer non of it so far. I am very grateful to many people and things that allowed myself to be financially independent while indulging in this delirium stage of mind. daily expenses has been monitored to have an articulate time frame i have to be confused.
i wish to be a non responsible child so that i can ignore the statement from my dad that he has drained out all his EPF for our education. but i guess it is just not possible. Giving parent a good retirement life has become a hidden stress to me. but i guess, it is still a blessing in disguise...
i am still far from being sure of what i am looking forward to. Things dont just come naturally apparently. Making a decision is just a beginning of tonnes of question. I have answer non of it so far. I am very grateful to many people and things that allowed myself to be financially independent while indulging in this delirium stage of mind. daily expenses has been monitored to have an articulate time frame i have to be confused.
i wish to be a non responsible child so that i can ignore the statement from my dad that he has drained out all his EPF for our education. but i guess it is just not possible. Giving parent a good retirement life has become a hidden stress to me. but i guess, it is still a blessing in disguise...
discipline
sometime i hates myself for knowing myself well. lack of discipline until the dying moment, then only gung-ho all the way. I do know this is really bad, but the problem is i always managed to pull it off with just last minute effort. i am thankful for the smart genes, but not once i have heard that attitude decides everything you will be.
now i am officially not attaching myself to any company, hence self-discipline has become super important. I am definitely not doing well enough. the fact that i did not do anything i am suppose to do for the whole day prove it all.
damn...i'm gonna die of hunger real soon....
now i am officially not attaching myself to any company, hence self-discipline has become super important. I am definitely not doing well enough. the fact that i did not do anything i am suppose to do for the whole day prove it all.
damn...i'm gonna die of hunger real soon....
night
10.30pm.
brain is still partially functioning. Wanted to rest but dont think i am capable of sleeping so early after a 2hour nap.
suppose to attend a meeting this morning. Supposed to do clean up in my room. But yeah, we all know, when u use the word 'suppose to', it did not happen eventually. All this happened due to the crazy Oriental Express. Absolutely no clue what it was, all i know is, i drank 8 shots (wait a second, those are double shots glass, it was 16 shots, crap~) of alcoholsss in 2 minutes. god knows how much brain cells are dead last night.
anyway, i should be grateful,to have a bunch of useless ex-colleague. Don't think everyone is lucky enough to have a farewell party will your former boss and colleagues and went crazy all along. now they are officially my friends only, and we are not going to undergo same problem every night and day.
Not sure how the future is, but i have heard enough story to know that you may cry along with your colleague when he/she is sad now, but once you left the company, you just became another acquaintance in life. As technology advance, people are less willing to keep in contact, i wonder why.
oh did i mention that i got memory gap again and puke all over the place without myself knowing it? :) and i actually have no memory of seeing a late comer, that according to her, i was talking to her in sound mind and scolded her for coming late. Hopefully this is not a sign of bipolar syndrome, crap...
brain is still partially functioning. Wanted to rest but dont think i am capable of sleeping so early after a 2hour nap.
suppose to attend a meeting this morning. Supposed to do clean up in my room. But yeah, we all know, when u use the word 'suppose to', it did not happen eventually. All this happened due to the crazy Oriental Express. Absolutely no clue what it was, all i know is, i drank 8 shots (wait a second, those are double shots glass, it was 16 shots, crap~) of alcoholsss in 2 minutes. god knows how much brain cells are dead last night.
anyway, i should be grateful,to have a bunch of useless ex-colleague. Don't think everyone is lucky enough to have a farewell party will your former boss and colleagues and went crazy all along. now they are officially my friends only, and we are not going to undergo same problem every night and day.
Not sure how the future is, but i have heard enough story to know that you may cry along with your colleague when he/she is sad now, but once you left the company, you just became another acquaintance in life. As technology advance, people are less willing to keep in contact, i wonder why.
oh did i mention that i got memory gap again and puke all over the place without myself knowing it? :) and i actually have no memory of seeing a late comer, that according to her, i was talking to her in sound mind and scolded her for coming late. Hopefully this is not a sign of bipolar syndrome, crap...
moving on...
So finally i have resigned and starting a new lifestyle. The reality hasnt really sit in yet as i actually have quite a full on weekend for the past 1 week. So still not feeling the difference yet. Heck, i am seeing my ex-colleague as frequent as it was, perhaps that is the key reason...
been scribble a lot in mandarin, not sure the reason behind. Just felt like writing in chinese, that's about it. I mean, after all, i am more capable of expressing myself in mandarin as compare to other languages due to the educational background ( will probably take an hour to write a sentence if i try to do it in Malay). Not only once i have encounter incident in which people find it so shocking to learn that i can read chinese (what the heck, i am good at it all right...), because i do not have the 'chinese school look'.
whatever it is, i have no clue, but strongly doubt that the statement is a compliment as a whole. Sometimes do find it rather scary that because of language barrier, we the malaysian chinese, splitting ourselves from the merely 21% population into another half. Given the current situation, if i were a politician, for sure i will play the inter AND intra racial card and manipulate the situation around as well. it is so darn easy to stir tension as respect and understanding was not much given to one another. Just throw a question on which language should science be taught in n u will start seeing people fighting. Both side have their point, but they did not see the common problem i.e. malaysian is jack of all language, but master of non, so why not look at the most important issue, which is the reason behind the incapability of grasping the languages? is the teacher up to the standard? as far as my experience can tell, HELL NO~ just ask around what do the BM teacher teach during the class, and the whoever prof that protest on this issue will understand that there has been a problem in the teaching method, n whether he win this war or not, malaysian's BM is weakening and will continue be seen as not cool to use it.
Cool factor is rather important for the y generation, well, take my friend's sister for example. She hates POA classes and hence chinese language. But few years back i saw her reading learning material on chinese language, i got so shocked and later only to find out she is learning that so she could watch drama acted by F4 and sing Jay Chow's song in RedBox.
i have gone through the pain of screwing up result as a result of inability to answer exam question in English. It took me 5 years to remember all the stuff in Malay language n A level expect me to convert everything into english in a year time. Not everyone is capable of doing that, so please, if want the student to be good at the language, then teach them at the right way at language classes.
nevertheless, i do think that implementation of this policy kinda too hasty, reason being our teacher's quality is still far from there yet. If only our government is patient enough to take 2-3 years to produce some high quality teachers, if only....
n why am i writing all this nonsense? crap....
been scribble a lot in mandarin, not sure the reason behind. Just felt like writing in chinese, that's about it. I mean, after all, i am more capable of expressing myself in mandarin as compare to other languages due to the educational background ( will probably take an hour to write a sentence if i try to do it in Malay). Not only once i have encounter incident in which people find it so shocking to learn that i can read chinese (what the heck, i am good at it all right...), because i do not have the 'chinese school look'.
whatever it is, i have no clue, but strongly doubt that the statement is a compliment as a whole. Sometimes do find it rather scary that because of language barrier, we the malaysian chinese, splitting ourselves from the merely 21% population into another half. Given the current situation, if i were a politician, for sure i will play the inter AND intra racial card and manipulate the situation around as well. it is so darn easy to stir tension as respect and understanding was not much given to one another. Just throw a question on which language should science be taught in n u will start seeing people fighting. Both side have their point, but they did not see the common problem i.e. malaysian is jack of all language, but master of non, so why not look at the most important issue, which is the reason behind the incapability of grasping the languages? is the teacher up to the standard? as far as my experience can tell, HELL NO~ just ask around what do the BM teacher teach during the class, and the whoever prof that protest on this issue will understand that there has been a problem in the teaching method, n whether he win this war or not, malaysian's BM is weakening and will continue be seen as not cool to use it.
Cool factor is rather important for the y generation, well, take my friend's sister for example. She hates POA classes and hence chinese language. But few years back i saw her reading learning material on chinese language, i got so shocked and later only to find out she is learning that so she could watch drama acted by F4 and sing Jay Chow's song in RedBox.
i have gone through the pain of screwing up result as a result of inability to answer exam question in English. It took me 5 years to remember all the stuff in Malay language n A level expect me to convert everything into english in a year time. Not everyone is capable of doing that, so please, if want the student to be good at the language, then teach them at the right way at language classes.
nevertheless, i do think that implementation of this policy kinda too hasty, reason being our teacher's quality is still far from there yet. If only our government is patient enough to take 2-3 years to produce some high quality teachers, if only....
n why am i writing all this nonsense? crap....
wrong answer....
did i give the wrong answer? i am still worrying over it.
when a paragraph of words is capable of disabling you from doing anything right for the next 12 hours, you should know it by hard....
yes, i am screwed....
when a paragraph of words is capable of disabling you from doing anything right for the next 12 hours, you should know it by hard....
yes, i am screwed....
slow...
ever since i started my course a month ago, time seems to have stretched longer than how it use to be. usually my weekends are rather unproductive, suddenly it became the most informative and fruitful time of the week. So it was like a additional 48 extra hours given to me from top above, i suddenly felt a little bit lost during the weekday.
how it tat possible that it is still May? i've been asking myself this question for many times as i was driving from point A to Point B during the day. My colleague would probably know that whenever i start thinking about certain things as i was driving, for sure i will head on to somewhere else besides my actual destination. N it happened rather rampant in the past weeks.
i am so anxious, but feeling helpless at the same time. Jun...please come by soon, and throw down a judgment on me if i have done it right...
how it tat possible that it is still May? i've been asking myself this question for many times as i was driving from point A to Point B during the day. My colleague would probably know that whenever i start thinking about certain things as i was driving, for sure i will head on to somewhere else besides my actual destination. N it happened rather rampant in the past weeks.
i am so anxious, but feeling helpless at the same time. Jun...please come by soon, and throw down a judgment on me if i have done it right...
10.10pm
wrote a long post on all the excuses that i can think of to explain myself being single. It sounds so convincing that i almost believe that it is the societies' fault that i am single.So, i deleted it.
I do wish to have a partner. But i did nothing to make it happen.
coward.
p/s: spent an hour on this nonsense just to avoid reading the thick textbook. I am a student once again. Behavior also act like one, my goodness....
I do wish to have a partner. But i did nothing to make it happen.
coward.
p/s: spent an hour on this nonsense just to avoid reading the thick textbook. I am a student once again. Behavior also act like one, my goodness....
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