i had a very good pay job in a very huge company. And hence, people just cant stop asking me why do i choose to quit.
dont think i ever answer them in the same manner. Well, that's because i never really answered it.
the truth can be hurtful and insulting, even to myself. So I choose not to mention it. It is quite amazing because sometimes i can even forgotten about the reason behind it.
thanks to all the incidental scenarios, i am quite aware now.
indeed, i've made a wrong decision that i have no regret making it.
"what if it fails?"
"i have no back up plan at all, so i have no idea."
"start from scratch?"
"start from scratch."
stereophonics - nothing compare 2 u
the voice explained everything....
(u might wanna turn off the background music first)
Nothing Compares 2 U - Stereophonics
(u might wanna turn off the background music first)
Nothing Compares 2 U - Stereophonics
resolution
"do you write down your new year resolution?"
" i did it without aware of it, because i wrote it in my blog, ha!"
"wow.... i'm impressed"
So thanks to the blog, i actually wrote down my new year resolution for the past few years. Interestingly, i do achieved quite a number of it. However, the is one resolution that has been reappearing in the list, which is to complete my travel log, and my long story.
i thought its gonna be easy to achieve it, but somehow i just keep dragging it again and again. so today after i completed my travel log in year 2006, i felt so proud of myself, ha~
2007~ here i come!
" i did it without aware of it, because i wrote it in my blog, ha!"
"wow.... i'm impressed"
So thanks to the blog, i actually wrote down my new year resolution for the past few years. Interestingly, i do achieved quite a number of it. However, the is one resolution that has been reappearing in the list, which is to complete my travel log, and my long story.
i thought its gonna be easy to achieve it, but somehow i just keep dragging it again and again. so today after i completed my travel log in year 2006, i felt so proud of myself, ha~
2007~ here i come!
bad habits
i am quite aware of my lifestyles changes since i start working. I am losing interest in watching EPL, stop going cinema, only shop when have something to buy, not watching TV, and only play computer games once in a blue moon (but will go hardcore for 2 days, and delete it day after).
At point i was proud of my changes and snubbed those friends who are still hooked up into it as immature. But now, i actually believe that if after a day of hard works, if you do not have any bad habits to indulge in, you are even more pathetic.
Craving or indulgence on anything is a sign of having something that you care for. As much as most of the time things that you care is absolutely rubbish (like OMG, Brat Pitt is married...but really, does it matter?), it is still a sign that you are pretty much intact with the world. Compared to people who really have nothing to keep their interest on besides work, many weird behaviors may beginning to infest the numbed heart.
so, here, i declared that i am open to some bad habits that can make me go crazy, go sleepless and earn nothing out of it at the end of the day~ (man, i love how i create such a great story just to make myself feel justifiable to watch Taiwan entertainment program :) )
p/s: i carefully write this up to avoid the usage of the word 'passion' as i've been abusing it, but the whole story is actually all about it...
At point i was proud of my changes and snubbed those friends who are still hooked up into it as immature. But now, i actually believe that if after a day of hard works, if you do not have any bad habits to indulge in, you are even more pathetic.
Craving or indulgence on anything is a sign of having something that you care for. As much as most of the time things that you care is absolutely rubbish (like OMG, Brat Pitt is married...but really, does it matter?), it is still a sign that you are pretty much intact with the world. Compared to people who really have nothing to keep their interest on besides work, many weird behaviors may beginning to infest the numbed heart.
so, here, i declared that i am open to some bad habits that can make me go crazy, go sleepless and earn nothing out of it at the end of the day~ (man, i love how i create such a great story just to make myself feel justifiable to watch Taiwan entertainment program :) )
p/s: i carefully write this up to avoid the usage of the word 'passion' as i've been abusing it, but the whole story is actually all about it...
kipitiam (3)
"now tell me~"
i can feel the anger. "okey, i am listening"
"what's with guy and beauty pageant?"
"what about it?"
"why is every man dream of getting ex-/beauty pageant to be gf?"
"i dont"
" no, i am sure you do, if i include the list to model, celebrity.."
i was getting cheeky, so i answered,
" because we are strong believer of Darwin Theory, that genetic selection is a must for survival"
"that was actually quite a good answer," another girl agreeing my cock story.
"come on, give me an answer, how do you feel if your friend have a model gf?"
"if it is model, i feel nothing, but it is a model/celebrity that i like, i will kill him"
"seriously?"
" not really....but definitely feel a bit jealous"
"why?"
"no answer for it"
"see....man use lower part to think most of the time"
"i preferred to be called as a visual animal"
how shallow you may argued, but seriously, it takes time to know a person's inner beauty, so appearance is what you can judge at initial stage. and there's one thing i believe the ladies should know - most men actually know quite well the difference between getting a wife and getting a girlfriend (or mistress).
And since when the world is fair?
i can feel the anger. "okey, i am listening"
"what's with guy and beauty pageant?"
"what about it?"
"why is every man dream of getting ex-/beauty pageant to be gf?"
"i dont"
" no, i am sure you do, if i include the list to model, celebrity.."
i was getting cheeky, so i answered,
" because we are strong believer of Darwin Theory, that genetic selection is a must for survival"
"that was actually quite a good answer," another girl agreeing my cock story.
"come on, give me an answer, how do you feel if your friend have a model gf?"
"if it is model, i feel nothing, but it is a model/celebrity that i like, i will kill him"
"seriously?"
" not really....but definitely feel a bit jealous"
"why?"
"no answer for it"
"see....man use lower part to think most of the time"
"i preferred to be called as a visual animal"
how shallow you may argued, but seriously, it takes time to know a person's inner beauty, so appearance is what you can judge at initial stage. and there's one thing i believe the ladies should know - most men actually know quite well the difference between getting a wife and getting a girlfriend (or mistress).
And since when the world is fair?
kipitiam (2)
had so many interesting conversation that many of them are still lingering in my thought....
" so what kind of criteria you are looking into?" one of the girl asked.
"at the moment, i look quite highly upon the ability to be independent"
"are you sure?"
"what's wrong?'
"all independent girls have dark corner that you will never know..."
"i can have my dark corner then..."
"you will still lose out....i have 2 stories on 2 independent girls for you"
"okey....."
"girl A, was told by the bf that he wants a independent gf, and so she start to socials around and have all kind of friends. eventually she became so independent that she started to feel annoyed about the bf that she starts to feel that he is a little bit too sticky. So currently most of the night the guy need to call her up, worrying about her where about while she is happily flirting with other guys"
"er..... maybe the guy dunno how to play the game, i am confident that it will not ended up like this," i argued
"fine, then talk about girl B, who love by the bf very very much. He praised her literally to everyone he knows, saying she is the most independent girl in the world, giving him all kind of freedom, and let him concentrate on his job and his friend during the weekday. He is so glad that she wants him to concentrate more on work before talking about marriage, as much as he really wan to get marry asap. BUT! what he dunno is, as he was happily having the gf over the weekend, she is sleeping with 5 other man over the weekday. and that is the REAL reason why she dont want to get married. "
".........."
" still think independent girl is the best?"
"i think........erm......that is a risk i am willing to take"
"good luck then...."
" so what kind of criteria you are looking into?" one of the girl asked.
"at the moment, i look quite highly upon the ability to be independent"
"are you sure?"
"what's wrong?'
"all independent girls have dark corner that you will never know..."
"i can have my dark corner then..."
"you will still lose out....i have 2 stories on 2 independent girls for you"
"okey....."
"girl A, was told by the bf that he wants a independent gf, and so she start to socials around and have all kind of friends. eventually she became so independent that she started to feel annoyed about the bf that she starts to feel that he is a little bit too sticky. So currently most of the night the guy need to call her up, worrying about her where about while she is happily flirting with other guys"
"er..... maybe the guy dunno how to play the game, i am confident that it will not ended up like this," i argued
"fine, then talk about girl B, who love by the bf very very much. He praised her literally to everyone he knows, saying she is the most independent girl in the world, giving him all kind of freedom, and let him concentrate on his job and his friend during the weekday. He is so glad that she wants him to concentrate more on work before talking about marriage, as much as he really wan to get marry asap. BUT! what he dunno is, as he was happily having the gf over the weekend, she is sleeping with 5 other man over the weekday. and that is the REAL reason why she dont want to get married. "
".........."
" still think independent girl is the best?"
"i think........erm......that is a risk i am willing to take"
"good luck then...."
kopitiam
Had so much coffee for the past few weeks that i am considering myself a coffee addict now. Its funny how i always declare myself as a tea person, and yet i have not been drinking tea for quite a long time. As Klangite i always bring my own tea to restaurant, be it Bah Kut Teh or dim sum ( apparently its not that common outside Klang, which really surprised me) but lately mum been bringing along some unknown tea, and i drank it without thinking much abo0ut the taste. So, i find it hard to describe it as enjoying the tea moment.
so yesterday i meet up with high school friend in yet another kopitiam, but i can no longer order anymore coffee. then we start talking about the use-to-be-famous mamak place has become so empty since most people choosing kopitiam over mamak now, which i am calling it an inflation in disguise.
then inevitably we entered conversation regarding relationship. I complained, and question on why must we talk about man vs women whenever there's both male and female in a gathering.
" that is because when there's only guys, you guys talk nothing but bullshit, i am just helping you to keep your crap in case you run of crap to talk"
" we just preferred not to talk about it"
"but if i am your partner, i am much preferred that you talk to me~"
see, my friend is juuuuuuuusst so good in leading me into topic that she wants to talk about...
"its a choice by nature for me not to throw my problem to my partner, which most likely she cant do anything about it"
" and it is okey to talk about it to friend?"
"usually dont talk to guys about it"
" and it is okey to talk about it to FEMALE friend instead of your partner?"
"err...........er..............."
she got me there..... i have all kind of answers for that in mind, but it all just seems like an excuse in that moment. i believe that friendship can be forged between male and female, but i also know that it is almost impossible to make a gf feel absolutely okey for their bf to have close female friend, even more so if the girl is the person he turns to when problem arises.
N yet i believe this is something that i would do if i have a partner now.
so yesterday i meet up with high school friend in yet another kopitiam, but i can no longer order anymore coffee. then we start talking about the use-to-be-famous mamak place has become so empty since most people choosing kopitiam over mamak now, which i am calling it an inflation in disguise.
then inevitably we entered conversation regarding relationship. I complained, and question on why must we talk about man vs women whenever there's both male and female in a gathering.
" that is because when there's only guys, you guys talk nothing but bullshit, i am just helping you to keep your crap in case you run of crap to talk"
" we just preferred not to talk about it"
"but if i am your partner, i am much preferred that you talk to me~"
see, my friend is juuuuuuuusst so good in leading me into topic that she wants to talk about...
"its a choice by nature for me not to throw my problem to my partner, which most likely she cant do anything about it"
" and it is okey to talk about it to friend?"
"usually dont talk to guys about it"
" and it is okey to talk about it to FEMALE friend instead of your partner?"
"err...........er..............."
she got me there..... i have all kind of answers for that in mind, but it all just seems like an excuse in that moment. i believe that friendship can be forged between male and female, but i also know that it is almost impossible to make a gf feel absolutely okey for their bf to have close female friend, even more so if the girl is the person he turns to when problem arises.
N yet i believe this is something that i would do if i have a partner now.
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