DJ: Ms Sabrina, who do you want to dedicate the next song to?
Sabrina: i wanna dedicate the next song to all my course mate, wishing them all the best for the exam in the later afternoon.
DJ: okey, here's the song for Sabrina and her course mate, Jay Sean - "down"
*music roll in*
"Baby are you DOWN, DOWN, DOWN, DOWN, DOWN~~"
i was literally cracking after hearing this...Come on DJ, are you sure you about your songs selection?
its not that simple
没那麼简单 就能找到 聊得来的伴
its not that simple, to find a partner that can talk to
尤其是在 看过了那麼多的背叛
especially,after seeing all these betrayals
总是不安 只好强悍
always insecure, has to toughen up
谁谋杀了我的浪漫
who killed all my romance
没那麼简单 就能去爱 别的全不看
its not that simple, to love, without seeing anything else
变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半
being realistic, perhaps is half good, half bad.
不爱孤单 一久也习惯
dont like to be alone, but its been long enough to get use to
不用担心谁 也不用被谁管
not worrying anyone, and not being controlled.
感觉快乐就忙东忙西
busy myself when i am feeling happy
感觉累了就放空自己
do nothing when i am tired
别人说的话 随便听一听 自己作决定
whatever others said, just listen, and decide myself
不想拥有太多情绪
do not wish to own too much emotion
一杯红酒配電影
a glass of wine plus a movie
在周末晚上 关上了
over the weekend night, shut off
手机 舒服窝在沙发裡
handphone, lying on the sofa comfortably
相爱没有那麼容易 每个人有他的脾气
love is not that simple, everyone has their own temper
过了爱作梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静
past the age of dreaming, a simple relationship is better off than a crazy love
幸福没有那麼容易 才会特别让人著迷
happiness is not that simple, hence its so mesmerizing
什麼都不懂的年纪
at the age of knowing nothing
曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经
used to whole-heartedly love someone, hence the happiest. used to.
想念最伤心 但却最动心 的记忆
missing someone hurts the most, and yet its the most touching memory.
yes, perhaps we can
As much as i am willing to believe that our beloved PM truly inspire to change the whole political scene, there's still this massive torn in my hearts (n perhaps many malaysian's heart) that making to doubt the success of GTP or 1Malaysia.
I grew up with lots of friends irregardless of races, as long we can understand each other. And everything seems to be fine until when i was form 4, the adults begin to tell me about sekolah asrama and the blah blah blah, or get some final exam paper from sekolah asrama because their questions would be very close to actual examination. Then i start to realize discrepancies among treatment we received. The scholarship stories then got really loud from my years onwards. The older i get, the more stories i heard that i begin to doubt the country that i once i know of, the one that i was taught during primary school.
after away from the education system for good few years, i know very well, education system, is the core of the current situation. Biro tetangga is a well known issue, and to my surprise, the reformist actually failed to convince the conservatives to eradicated it. Instead, 1malaysia concept is implemented into. And seriously, would the lecturers that have been organizing the program in their way will listen to what it is being suggested?
Then follow by the local university election. It is just disgusting to see how the guard, the school administrator controlling the scene like the final judge. No matter what reason it is, it is just wrong for school administrator to even bud into school election that is suppose to be student's representative. Its just plain ridiculous to know the student representatives need to decide which side they are on for the election. ITS STUDENTS' REPRESENTATIVE FOR GOODNESS SAKE.....as the name it is suggested, should be elected by the students and for the students.
the tipping point of my disappointment towards the reform program is definitely the media control by the current government. To make things worse, some people get arrested by writing nonsense over the internet, but some people can just accuse people as they wish, front page! it is angry enough to know they are protected by the invisible shield, and no, they have to tell us that, hey, i am so safe that i even call myself awang selamat!
it is the triumph of the conservatives so far, and as much as i want to optimistic, i am not seeing any sign of them going down. The youth group that is once well known for extremity, is surprisingly open minded since the special one took the seat, but the supporters are not happy about it judging from the news.
i am not asking so much, let's just start by giving up the special rights in media coverage, and yes, perhaps we can.
I grew up with lots of friends irregardless of races, as long we can understand each other. And everything seems to be fine until when i was form 4, the adults begin to tell me about sekolah asrama and the blah blah blah, or get some final exam paper from sekolah asrama because their questions would be very close to actual examination. Then i start to realize discrepancies among treatment we received. The scholarship stories then got really loud from my years onwards. The older i get, the more stories i heard that i begin to doubt the country that i once i know of, the one that i was taught during primary school.
after away from the education system for good few years, i know very well, education system, is the core of the current situation. Biro tetangga is a well known issue, and to my surprise, the reformist actually failed to convince the conservatives to eradicated it. Instead, 1malaysia concept is implemented into. And seriously, would the lecturers that have been organizing the program in their way will listen to what it is being suggested?
Then follow by the local university election. It is just disgusting to see how the guard, the school administrator controlling the scene like the final judge. No matter what reason it is, it is just wrong for school administrator to even bud into school election that is suppose to be student's representative. Its just plain ridiculous to know the student representatives need to decide which side they are on for the election. ITS STUDENTS' REPRESENTATIVE FOR GOODNESS SAKE.....as the name it is suggested, should be elected by the students and for the students.
the tipping point of my disappointment towards the reform program is definitely the media control by the current government. To make things worse, some people get arrested by writing nonsense over the internet, but some people can just accuse people as they wish, front page! it is angry enough to know they are protected by the invisible shield, and no, they have to tell us that, hey, i am so safe that i even call myself awang selamat!
it is the triumph of the conservatives so far, and as much as i want to optimistic, i am not seeing any sign of them going down. The youth group that is once well known for extremity, is surprisingly open minded since the special one took the seat, but the supporters are not happy about it judging from the news.
i am not asking so much, let's just start by giving up the special rights in media coverage, and yes, perhaps we can.
is honesty really the best policy?
i am quite an honest person, well...no one ever tell me that, but that's how i would rate myself as. I dont cheat on girl, i dont do backstabbing (always do it in his/her face,ha~)
well, i felt kinda gutted for being honest today. Did an online assessment test, something like a talent assessment for this trainee program. Since its a personality test, and i have always been a team player, so i dont see any wrong of answering the question base on how i feel irregardless it will reflect good or bad side of me. I was quite confident about this because i dont think ANYONE will actually kick out candidate base on personality, and even if they do so, why would they do that to someone that is a team player according to test?
and guess what, i DIDNT PASS THE TEST~ just because i am being honest, just because i tend to choose answer that showing i am more of the top percentile group instead of the top leaders, just because i am more of a good follower in the group instead of the leader, they failed me!!
So i should cheat my way to get through the test? or maybe lying is a sign that you are competitive (thus can be a leader), so you deserve to be in the next round?
it is either that i am really not suitable for this program, or this personality test is really a stupid criteria to have.
still thinking how should i answer this type of test if it happen again ---to be or not to be, that is the question......
well, i felt kinda gutted for being honest today. Did an online assessment test, something like a talent assessment for this trainee program. Since its a personality test, and i have always been a team player, so i dont see any wrong of answering the question base on how i feel irregardless it will reflect good or bad side of me. I was quite confident about this because i dont think ANYONE will actually kick out candidate base on personality, and even if they do so, why would they do that to someone that is a team player according to test?
and guess what, i DIDNT PASS THE TEST~ just because i am being honest, just because i tend to choose answer that showing i am more of the top percentile group instead of the top leaders, just because i am more of a good follower in the group instead of the leader, they failed me!!
So i should cheat my way to get through the test? or maybe lying is a sign that you are competitive (thus can be a leader), so you deserve to be in the next round?
it is either that i am really not suitable for this program, or this personality test is really a stupid criteria to have.
still thinking how should i answer this type of test if it happen again ---to be or not to be, that is the question......
Me 3.0
most people that i know of takes many years of mistake become they come to realize what we want in life. its funny how we capable to learn more through the painful way. It the logic stay right, the younger generation are way more rebellious than we were are due to the fact that they have undergo way too little painful experience. In fact, most parent will sue the teacher when the children got canned nowadays, compared to the good old days. I will never let my father know that i got canned, because i would definitely got beaten for the second time as he believe i must have done something wrong to deserve it. But, i do think the younger generation are more creative as they live in a more open environment, or perhaps its just a form of Darwin's survivor theory.
had a rather intellectual conversation with this good friend of mine that is like milesss away. Well, its actually through facebook message, so dont think it should be call a conversation. But there are words that really lighten my heart a lot. she understand me in many ways naturally, and we are equally care free, so i guess that's what make us good friend.
i was telling her that i am lacking some reason or motivation, hence i am considering moving on. She replied saying that i dont need any motivation, because an unmotivated person is someone that will stay there as it is and feeling numb about everything. In a way she actually pointed out many doubts of mine, i dunno why, it just give me some assurance to make a decision.
yes indeed i am ready to gear up for yet another phase. I did doubt myself that how can i not even try hard enough in 2.0 before i move up to another version? but now i kinda understand, me 2.0 is like window vista, its really crap, so its ok to be laugh at, its ok to be short, just toughen up and shift the gear.
today heard a news about these awards that would have been mine go to my colleague. I am really happy for her as she did put so much effort into it, but still feeling a bit painful to know how much have i let go in the process of searching myself. I will take it all back, or maybe by then, it doesnt matter anymore....
had a rather intellectual conversation with this good friend of mine that is like milesss away. Well, its actually through facebook message, so dont think it should be call a conversation. But there are words that really lighten my heart a lot. she understand me in many ways naturally, and we are equally care free, so i guess that's what make us good friend.
i was telling her that i am lacking some reason or motivation, hence i am considering moving on. She replied saying that i dont need any motivation, because an unmotivated person is someone that will stay there as it is and feeling numb about everything. In a way she actually pointed out many doubts of mine, i dunno why, it just give me some assurance to make a decision.
yes indeed i am ready to gear up for yet another phase. I did doubt myself that how can i not even try hard enough in 2.0 before i move up to another version? but now i kinda understand, me 2.0 is like window vista, its really crap, so its ok to be laugh at, its ok to be short, just toughen up and shift the gear.
today heard a news about these awards that would have been mine go to my colleague. I am really happy for her as she did put so much effort into it, but still feeling a bit painful to know how much have i let go in the process of searching myself. I will take it all back, or maybe by then, it doesnt matter anymore....
year 2010
ok, this is kinda late, but it all thanks to 2 weeks of crazy lifestyle i had with my friend from NZ. the only 3 things that i have done for the past 3 weeks were probably drink, dance, drive, and doze off. oh wait, that's 4 things.
so after almost month long of celebration, its time to face the year ahead. I cant help but to fear for the coming 300 more days ahead. For the past 4 months, all i did was to do the groundwork for the coming year 2010.
The year has arrived, and many things are actually ready to run. I cant help myself but keep asking myself, what if i fail....i know, for the first time, this is the year that define myself...like my country, year 2010, is the year of 'reckoning'. this year, is the year that i proved to myself that i am right to make all this decision. So many people has gave me the strength, and the person that doubt the most is actually myself. I need to discover my reason to believe in it, the reason to move on, the reason to have no regret.
so year 2010, again, will be more or less similar to year 2009 as i am far from achieving it.
1. read at least 30min of books before going to bed - i think its time to rediscover my love for books. starting to feel myself mentally empty with low creativity, definitely has much to do with the avoidance of reading for past whole year.
2. exercise the 10min workout set taught by Siva every morning to start the day with some sweat.
3. 1 day of random new skill (at the moment is hip hop), 1 day of badminton or squash, 3 days of gym per week - i realized i do care about my appearance much more than i perceived. Being active in sports has the benefit of strong will power, and better body shape that definitely boost up my self-esteem that is currently hovering at all time low
4. raise my yearly income to above RM60,000 once again, which translate to RM5000 a month - seriously, i am not so much of a money minded person. But i realized,as a young adult, you need to love money to a certain degree or else you will be lacking the desire to strive for your career. So i need to love more on seeing big figure in my bank account and dream of giving the best to my family.
5. go for a spontaneous trip with friend - being spontaneous has always been part of my life, so i definitely want to continue keeping that in mind.
6.schedule work and play time in the right ratio - being a self-employed making myself spending lots of time doing nothing, and this is definitely and must do thing for this year!
7. complete my CFP, and keep the option of challenging CIFP in mind - unless i failed, or else this shouldnt be an issued. 5 years goals - established certain reputation that is sensible enough to take up CFA
8. make profit from the trading progam - i have spent so much in it, and i know this will either be my biggest let down, or biggest surprise for the year, so i put you in lucky no. 8.
9. purchase a ~RM120,000 car in december - was thinking of owning a house, but reckon the probability is rather low, so might as well not writing it down.
10. donate money for charity - i will keep this in my mind for sure this year (friends that are claiming themselve to be charitable are excluded since its is quite an obvious lie)
11. spend time writing down journal /story at least 4 times a week - travel log has to be updated to current year or else it is becoming pointless soon. and talking to myself do help me in many ways. As such, i wan to discipline to continue doing so.
12. forget the past, and move on in terms of relationship, take things slowly - i have been living in the shadow for long enough, and for the first time, i felt more prepared than ever to move on. Not going to be desperate or the i dont care attitude.but if the right one appear, will not hesitate as it use to be, anymore.
13. the most important of all, find the reasons to achieve all this. with nothing to inspire on, all this will just plain talk.
wish me luck
so after almost month long of celebration, its time to face the year ahead. I cant help but to fear for the coming 300 more days ahead. For the past 4 months, all i did was to do the groundwork for the coming year 2010.
The year has arrived, and many things are actually ready to run. I cant help myself but keep asking myself, what if i fail....i know, for the first time, this is the year that define myself...like my country, year 2010, is the year of 'reckoning'. this year, is the year that i proved to myself that i am right to make all this decision. So many people has gave me the strength, and the person that doubt the most is actually myself. I need to discover my reason to believe in it, the reason to move on, the reason to have no regret.
so year 2010, again, will be more or less similar to year 2009 as i am far from achieving it.
1. read at least 30min of books before going to bed - i think its time to rediscover my love for books. starting to feel myself mentally empty with low creativity, definitely has much to do with the avoidance of reading for past whole year.
2. exercise the 10min workout set taught by Siva every morning to start the day with some sweat.
3. 1 day of random new skill (at the moment is hip hop), 1 day of badminton or squash, 3 days of gym per week - i realized i do care about my appearance much more than i perceived. Being active in sports has the benefit of strong will power, and better body shape that definitely boost up my self-esteem that is currently hovering at all time low
4. raise my yearly income to above RM60,000 once again, which translate to RM5000 a month - seriously, i am not so much of a money minded person. But i realized,as a young adult, you need to love money to a certain degree or else you will be lacking the desire to strive for your career. So i need to love more on seeing big figure in my bank account and dream of giving the best to my family.
5. go for a spontaneous trip with friend - being spontaneous has always been part of my life, so i definitely want to continue keeping that in mind.
6.schedule work and play time in the right ratio - being a self-employed making myself spending lots of time doing nothing, and this is definitely and must do thing for this year!
7. complete my CFP, and keep the option of challenging CIFP in mind - unless i failed, or else this shouldnt be an issued. 5 years goals - established certain reputation that is sensible enough to take up CFA
8. make profit from the trading progam - i have spent so much in it, and i know this will either be my biggest let down, or biggest surprise for the year, so i put you in lucky no. 8.
9. purchase a ~RM120,000 car in december - was thinking of owning a house, but reckon the probability is rather low, so might as well not writing it down.
10. donate money for charity - i will keep this in my mind for sure this year (friends that are claiming themselve to be charitable are excluded since its is quite an obvious lie)
11. spend time writing down journal /story at least 4 times a week - travel log has to be updated to current year or else it is becoming pointless soon. and talking to myself do help me in many ways. As such, i wan to discipline to continue doing so.
12. forget the past, and move on in terms of relationship, take things slowly - i have been living in the shadow for long enough, and for the first time, i felt more prepared than ever to move on. Not going to be desperate or the i dont care attitude.but if the right one appear, will not hesitate as it use to be, anymore.
13. the most important of all, find the reasons to achieve all this. with nothing to inspire on, all this will just plain talk.
wish me luck
review of 09 resolution...
so here's the big boasted promised that i made in early 2008, n how i failed most of it,ha...
1. Maintain my total gross income, with 20% goes to 'cannot be touched fund' and 15% goes to investment.
-fail, gross income drop, n no saving in whatsoever, but that's due to change of game plan along t way,so no complain...
2. complete my travel blog (god, please give me strength on this~)
2. complete my travel blog (god, please give me strength on this~)
-well, i did complete year 2006, so maybe a B- for this,haha
3. At least complete the 2 stories that have be swimming in my dream for the past year (maybe this one i need strength from angels~)- fail big times....in fact thinking of not writing the story, got some other story in mind instead (hey, this sound bad)
4. increase my frequency of exercise/gym to 4 days/week-only to probably 2 times a week, so FAIL~
5. complete a professional papers and an investment program-didnt complete, but definitely doing it at the fastest track i can find, so one big TICK~
6. continue trying new games. doing acrobatic stunk with airplane would be a good start :)- quite hard to fail this i guess, its fun stuff anyway, so ya, i did rock climbing :)
7. travel to any random place without prior planning (although high chances this will tarnish my resolution no.1)- i ended up did 2, 1 in langkawi alone for a very good relaxing beach side holiday, another 1 is just ended bali trip that can only explained by t word crazy, so BIG TICK
8. learn how to use my camera-well, its almost broken now, so this resolution is pointless now
9. have a solid plan on financing towards a very own SOHO unit.- pathway is definitely clearer now, but no solid plan is formed, fail....
10. if cant help physically, at least donate money to charity.- feel so shameful for not achieving this...
11. Concentrate my focus on my decided career path.- in certain way, yes it is...
12. erm.....getting a gf...
-why did i put it there to embarrassed myself for again? hm...just to make myself feel better, met lots of interesting ladies throughout the year, but so far, i am content to have all of them as friend (a very nice way to say that i am still single,haha...)
so, i guess i total i score about 4 out of 11 ~35% achieved....this is definitely lower than the previous year.....so you would say its not such a good year to me, n definitely there is lots of confusion invovle throughout the year, but yeah...its time to move on, n talk about 2010 resolution~~~
job
i had a very good pay job in a very huge company. And hence, people just cant stop asking me why do i choose to quit.
dont think i ever answer them in the same manner. Well, that's because i never really answered it.
the truth can be hurtful and insulting, even to myself. So I choose not to mention it. It is quite amazing because sometimes i can even forgotten about the reason behind it.
thanks to all the incidental scenarios, i am quite aware now.
indeed, i've made a wrong decision that i have no regret making it.
"what if it fails?"
"i have no back up plan at all, so i have no idea."
"start from scratch?"
"start from scratch."
dont think i ever answer them in the same manner. Well, that's because i never really answered it.
the truth can be hurtful and insulting, even to myself. So I choose not to mention it. It is quite amazing because sometimes i can even forgotten about the reason behind it.
thanks to all the incidental scenarios, i am quite aware now.
indeed, i've made a wrong decision that i have no regret making it.
"what if it fails?"
"i have no back up plan at all, so i have no idea."
"start from scratch?"
"start from scratch."
stereophonics - nothing compare 2 u
the voice explained everything....
(u might wanna turn off the background music first)
Nothing Compares 2 U - Stereophonics
(u might wanna turn off the background music first)
Nothing Compares 2 U - Stereophonics
resolution
"do you write down your new year resolution?"
" i did it without aware of it, because i wrote it in my blog, ha!"
"wow.... i'm impressed"
So thanks to the blog, i actually wrote down my new year resolution for the past few years. Interestingly, i do achieved quite a number of it. However, the is one resolution that has been reappearing in the list, which is to complete my travel log, and my long story.
i thought its gonna be easy to achieve it, but somehow i just keep dragging it again and again. so today after i completed my travel log in year 2006, i felt so proud of myself, ha~
2007~ here i come!
" i did it without aware of it, because i wrote it in my blog, ha!"
"wow.... i'm impressed"
So thanks to the blog, i actually wrote down my new year resolution for the past few years. Interestingly, i do achieved quite a number of it. However, the is one resolution that has been reappearing in the list, which is to complete my travel log, and my long story.
i thought its gonna be easy to achieve it, but somehow i just keep dragging it again and again. so today after i completed my travel log in year 2006, i felt so proud of myself, ha~
2007~ here i come!
bad habits
i am quite aware of my lifestyles changes since i start working. I am losing interest in watching EPL, stop going cinema, only shop when have something to buy, not watching TV, and only play computer games once in a blue moon (but will go hardcore for 2 days, and delete it day after).
At point i was proud of my changes and snubbed those friends who are still hooked up into it as immature. But now, i actually believe that if after a day of hard works, if you do not have any bad habits to indulge in, you are even more pathetic.
Craving or indulgence on anything is a sign of having something that you care for. As much as most of the time things that you care is absolutely rubbish (like OMG, Brat Pitt is married...but really, does it matter?), it is still a sign that you are pretty much intact with the world. Compared to people who really have nothing to keep their interest on besides work, many weird behaviors may beginning to infest the numbed heart.
so, here, i declared that i am open to some bad habits that can make me go crazy, go sleepless and earn nothing out of it at the end of the day~ (man, i love how i create such a great story just to make myself feel justifiable to watch Taiwan entertainment program :) )
p/s: i carefully write this up to avoid the usage of the word 'passion' as i've been abusing it, but the whole story is actually all about it...
At point i was proud of my changes and snubbed those friends who are still hooked up into it as immature. But now, i actually believe that if after a day of hard works, if you do not have any bad habits to indulge in, you are even more pathetic.
Craving or indulgence on anything is a sign of having something that you care for. As much as most of the time things that you care is absolutely rubbish (like OMG, Brat Pitt is married...but really, does it matter?), it is still a sign that you are pretty much intact with the world. Compared to people who really have nothing to keep their interest on besides work, many weird behaviors may beginning to infest the numbed heart.
so, here, i declared that i am open to some bad habits that can make me go crazy, go sleepless and earn nothing out of it at the end of the day~ (man, i love how i create such a great story just to make myself feel justifiable to watch Taiwan entertainment program :) )
p/s: i carefully write this up to avoid the usage of the word 'passion' as i've been abusing it, but the whole story is actually all about it...
kipitiam (3)
"now tell me~"
i can feel the anger. "okey, i am listening"
"what's with guy and beauty pageant?"
"what about it?"
"why is every man dream of getting ex-/beauty pageant to be gf?"
"i dont"
" no, i am sure you do, if i include the list to model, celebrity.."
i was getting cheeky, so i answered,
" because we are strong believer of Darwin Theory, that genetic selection is a must for survival"
"that was actually quite a good answer," another girl agreeing my cock story.
"come on, give me an answer, how do you feel if your friend have a model gf?"
"if it is model, i feel nothing, but it is a model/celebrity that i like, i will kill him"
"seriously?"
" not really....but definitely feel a bit jealous"
"why?"
"no answer for it"
"see....man use lower part to think most of the time"
"i preferred to be called as a visual animal"
how shallow you may argued, but seriously, it takes time to know a person's inner beauty, so appearance is what you can judge at initial stage. and there's one thing i believe the ladies should know - most men actually know quite well the difference between getting a wife and getting a girlfriend (or mistress).
And since when the world is fair?
i can feel the anger. "okey, i am listening"
"what's with guy and beauty pageant?"
"what about it?"
"why is every man dream of getting ex-/beauty pageant to be gf?"
"i dont"
" no, i am sure you do, if i include the list to model, celebrity.."
i was getting cheeky, so i answered,
" because we are strong believer of Darwin Theory, that genetic selection is a must for survival"
"that was actually quite a good answer," another girl agreeing my cock story.
"come on, give me an answer, how do you feel if your friend have a model gf?"
"if it is model, i feel nothing, but it is a model/celebrity that i like, i will kill him"
"seriously?"
" not really....but definitely feel a bit jealous"
"why?"
"no answer for it"
"see....man use lower part to think most of the time"
"i preferred to be called as a visual animal"
how shallow you may argued, but seriously, it takes time to know a person's inner beauty, so appearance is what you can judge at initial stage. and there's one thing i believe the ladies should know - most men actually know quite well the difference between getting a wife and getting a girlfriend (or mistress).
And since when the world is fair?
kipitiam (2)
had so many interesting conversation that many of them are still lingering in my thought....
" so what kind of criteria you are looking into?" one of the girl asked.
"at the moment, i look quite highly upon the ability to be independent"
"are you sure?"
"what's wrong?'
"all independent girls have dark corner that you will never know..."
"i can have my dark corner then..."
"you will still lose out....i have 2 stories on 2 independent girls for you"
"okey....."
"girl A, was told by the bf that he wants a independent gf, and so she start to socials around and have all kind of friends. eventually she became so independent that she started to feel annoyed about the bf that she starts to feel that he is a little bit too sticky. So currently most of the night the guy need to call her up, worrying about her where about while she is happily flirting with other guys"
"er..... maybe the guy dunno how to play the game, i am confident that it will not ended up like this," i argued
"fine, then talk about girl B, who love by the bf very very much. He praised her literally to everyone he knows, saying she is the most independent girl in the world, giving him all kind of freedom, and let him concentrate on his job and his friend during the weekday. He is so glad that she wants him to concentrate more on work before talking about marriage, as much as he really wan to get marry asap. BUT! what he dunno is, as he was happily having the gf over the weekend, she is sleeping with 5 other man over the weekday. and that is the REAL reason why she dont want to get married. "
".........."
" still think independent girl is the best?"
"i think........erm......that is a risk i am willing to take"
"good luck then...."
" so what kind of criteria you are looking into?" one of the girl asked.
"at the moment, i look quite highly upon the ability to be independent"
"are you sure?"
"what's wrong?'
"all independent girls have dark corner that you will never know..."
"i can have my dark corner then..."
"you will still lose out....i have 2 stories on 2 independent girls for you"
"okey....."
"girl A, was told by the bf that he wants a independent gf, and so she start to socials around and have all kind of friends. eventually she became so independent that she started to feel annoyed about the bf that she starts to feel that he is a little bit too sticky. So currently most of the night the guy need to call her up, worrying about her where about while she is happily flirting with other guys"
"er..... maybe the guy dunno how to play the game, i am confident that it will not ended up like this," i argued
"fine, then talk about girl B, who love by the bf very very much. He praised her literally to everyone he knows, saying she is the most independent girl in the world, giving him all kind of freedom, and let him concentrate on his job and his friend during the weekday. He is so glad that she wants him to concentrate more on work before talking about marriage, as much as he really wan to get marry asap. BUT! what he dunno is, as he was happily having the gf over the weekend, she is sleeping with 5 other man over the weekday. and that is the REAL reason why she dont want to get married. "
".........."
" still think independent girl is the best?"
"i think........erm......that is a risk i am willing to take"
"good luck then...."
kopitiam
Had so much coffee for the past few weeks that i am considering myself a coffee addict now. Its funny how i always declare myself as a tea person, and yet i have not been drinking tea for quite a long time. As Klangite i always bring my own tea to restaurant, be it Bah Kut Teh or dim sum ( apparently its not that common outside Klang, which really surprised me) but lately mum been bringing along some unknown tea, and i drank it without thinking much abo0ut the taste. So, i find it hard to describe it as enjoying the tea moment.
so yesterday i meet up with high school friend in yet another kopitiam, but i can no longer order anymore coffee. then we start talking about the use-to-be-famous mamak place has become so empty since most people choosing kopitiam over mamak now, which i am calling it an inflation in disguise.
then inevitably we entered conversation regarding relationship. I complained, and question on why must we talk about man vs women whenever there's both male and female in a gathering.
" that is because when there's only guys, you guys talk nothing but bullshit, i am just helping you to keep your crap in case you run of crap to talk"
" we just preferred not to talk about it"
"but if i am your partner, i am much preferred that you talk to me~"
see, my friend is juuuuuuuusst so good in leading me into topic that she wants to talk about...
"its a choice by nature for me not to throw my problem to my partner, which most likely she cant do anything about it"
" and it is okey to talk about it to friend?"
"usually dont talk to guys about it"
" and it is okey to talk about it to FEMALE friend instead of your partner?"
"err...........er..............."
she got me there..... i have all kind of answers for that in mind, but it all just seems like an excuse in that moment. i believe that friendship can be forged between male and female, but i also know that it is almost impossible to make a gf feel absolutely okey for their bf to have close female friend, even more so if the girl is the person he turns to when problem arises.
N yet i believe this is something that i would do if i have a partner now.
so yesterday i meet up with high school friend in yet another kopitiam, but i can no longer order anymore coffee. then we start talking about the use-to-be-famous mamak place has become so empty since most people choosing kopitiam over mamak now, which i am calling it an inflation in disguise.
then inevitably we entered conversation regarding relationship. I complained, and question on why must we talk about man vs women whenever there's both male and female in a gathering.
" that is because when there's only guys, you guys talk nothing but bullshit, i am just helping you to keep your crap in case you run of crap to talk"
" we just preferred not to talk about it"
"but if i am your partner, i am much preferred that you talk to me~"
see, my friend is juuuuuuuusst so good in leading me into topic that she wants to talk about...
"its a choice by nature for me not to throw my problem to my partner, which most likely she cant do anything about it"
" and it is okey to talk about it to friend?"
"usually dont talk to guys about it"
" and it is okey to talk about it to FEMALE friend instead of your partner?"
"err...........er..............."
she got me there..... i have all kind of answers for that in mind, but it all just seems like an excuse in that moment. i believe that friendship can be forged between male and female, but i also know that it is almost impossible to make a gf feel absolutely okey for their bf to have close female friend, even more so if the girl is the person he turns to when problem arises.
N yet i believe this is something that i would do if i have a partner now.
passion
facebook has become so prominent that most people cant remember what they did online before its existence. i have not tried any games in facebook besides twister, but still that doesnt stop me from logging in.
so most of the time i will just be a silent user and observed only what people is feeling right now. Maybe is due to the similar age, quite often i am seeing things or frustration that me myself felt it. so the latest trend i am seeing is about passion.
most of my friends are working for 2 - 3 years by now, and is on the verge of looking for actual direction in their life (well, some found it, while some dont even bother about it), so 'passion' has been the word repeatedly appeared on the screen.
the systematic lifestyles that we experienced as we start working is so rigid that most people just stop using the right brain, and eventually losing the passion they have. i am not saying all of us, but definitely a good number of us are losing it.
perhaps, if we learn to be living a more spontaneous life, less facebook n TVB drama, we could be better off.
"wei, we left nothing to do leh if we dont watch tv and online..."
"mamak doesnt seems to be that much spontaneous also...."
if money is not an issue, picking up a new skill is definitely a way to go..it doesnt have to be useful, just something new that you can talk cock to others and said hey, i've done that.
but, since when money is not an issue? trueee......so until the money is not an issue, let's get rot together and be a passionless, cynical average man lar~
so most of the time i will just be a silent user and observed only what people is feeling right now. Maybe is due to the similar age, quite often i am seeing things or frustration that me myself felt it. so the latest trend i am seeing is about passion.
most of my friends are working for 2 - 3 years by now, and is on the verge of looking for actual direction in their life (well, some found it, while some dont even bother about it), so 'passion' has been the word repeatedly appeared on the screen.
the systematic lifestyles that we experienced as we start working is so rigid that most people just stop using the right brain, and eventually losing the passion they have. i am not saying all of us, but definitely a good number of us are losing it.
perhaps, if we learn to be living a more spontaneous life, less facebook n TVB drama, we could be better off.
"wei, we left nothing to do leh if we dont watch tv and online..."
"mamak doesnt seems to be that much spontaneous also...."
if money is not an issue, picking up a new skill is definitely a way to go..it doesnt have to be useful, just something new that you can talk cock to others and said hey, i've done that.
but, since when money is not an issue? trueee......so until the money is not an issue, let's get rot together and be a passionless, cynical average man lar~
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